Today on live I shared some pretty deep stuff on where I’m at in my life right now professionally. -
I have always prided myself in knowing “what to do” to achieve my goals. Lately, I feel like God has taken that and completely flipped it upside down. My days are not perfectly planned. I am constantly looking for discipline with balance. I practice forced positivity because I often feel pessimistic. The thought of “WHY is this happening” keeps me from being optimistic and it’s a mental fight to push past that every single day. I’m struggling y’all✨
Lately, the only thought that has remained consistent in my mind is that I refuse to be anywhere (professionally or otherwise) that makes me feel like I should be ashamed to be me. I spent the last 3 years making myself small in hopes that I could push past the negative layer of tv without people really noticing me. I was ashamed and I constantly felt like I was too much, instead of perfectly enough. I hate the thought of me shrinking myself to fit in any opportunity that didn’t allow me to be 100% me.
The fact is, I can’t change anything in the past and I don’t want to. While I may not know “what’s next,” professionally, I know God has paved my path with growth, discovery and support. -
I am so thankful to all of you who are so supportive and uplifting. Your energy is so appreciated and it means more than you know.