The pick of the...VillaPam #pickoftheday #cicadas #summer2018 #phdlife #phdanxiety πŸ™ˆπŸ˜…πŸ–₯πŸ“–
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I don't even know which stage I'm at right now. It's true that I've passed my viva... but a lot of complicated things happened after that. Long story short, now one of my external examiners has unfortunately withdrawn as my examiner (it's not me, it's him kinda situation). Worst case scenario, I need to face a new external with my corrected thesis, and a new viva too. PhD is definitely a permanent head damage. #prayforme #science #piledhigheranddeeper #phd#phd #phdstudent #phdstruggles #phdproblems #phdexperiment #phd #biomedicalscience #protein #phdanxiety #phddepression #dontgiveup #widn #thesiswriteup #phdthesis #phdwriting #phdwriteup #womeninstem #phdenomenalphdemale #phdthesissubmission #phdviva #phdsubmission #naturescience #phdcareerstories
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I felt like my wings have been clipped the past few weeks...πŸ’”I spent the last 7 days of May in the hospital in Lincoln,NE with 2 intestinal blockages due to excessive inflammation in my small intestine. This same exact thing happened last year, a week-ish earlier. A lot was ruled out, including Crohn’s & other concerning syndromes, but there was also no definitive conclusion πŸ₯πŸ€·πŸΌβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΌβ€β™€οΈ. I am so thankful for my best gf here Erica, & my girlfriends, colleagues, & supervisors who offered or gave support to myself, Darwin, & Lola during a stressful & sometimes scary time far from family. There are layers of emotion to process from the experience, & after a week without solid food, it’s been difficult finding energy to be a functional person on my own, let alone trying to compare this recovery pace with my β€œnormal” functional levels & sometimes my own outlandish expectations. Struggling with #physicalhealth makes struggling with #mentalhealth in an area difficult to get adequate care that much more difficultπŸ™ŽπŸΌβ€β™€οΈalthough I have had top-notch self-care with lots of Harry Potter & some β˜€οΈπŸΎπŸΎπŸ« & #52happylists courtesy of @_shewright_ πŸ‘―β€β™€οΈπŸ‘©β€β€οΈβ€πŸ‘©My #ladyloves & #STEMsisters from all walks of life that have reached out- your support has brought both smiles & tears exactly when they were needed ❀️ πŸ’ͺ🏼Photo: February 2015, Windows, Sp. PhoneπŸ˜‚Hattiesburg, MS. #easternbluebird #bluebirdsofMS #bluebirdsofinstagram #bluebirdofhappiness #thebluebirdgirl #bluebirdworld #winginit #wingstogetyouthroughtheweek #neverthelessshepersisted #firstgen #firstgenstem #scientistswhoselfie #mentalhealthishealth #healthadvocacy #phdepression #phdanxiety #scicomm
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Confession time: God knows how much I really want to stay positive while I'm doing my thesis corrections these days. I remember saying to my supervisors, "I think I can finish all of the corrections in 2-3 weeks." But here I am entering the second week after my viva, and I am still reading up to brush my literature review chapter. When you read about 10 papers, just to write 1 sentence in your thesis... I don't know when I'll be finally done 😭 #prayforme #science #piledhigheranddeeper #phd#phd #phdstudent #phdstruggles #phdproblems #phdexperiment #phd #biomedicalscience #protein #phdanxiety #phddepression #dontgiveup #widn #thesiswriteup #phdthesis #phdwriting #phdwriteup #womeninstem #phdenomenalphdemale #phdthesissubmission #phdviva #phdsubmission #naturescience #phdcareerstories #phdcomics
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I have just recently started using twitter properly and I want to use it as a platform to raise awareness. At the beginning I was afraid to share my #PhD experience, you know will I get that reference, will I get a job if I am too vocal, will my voice be silenced by that group of my colleagues who made my life a hell for two years in a row, will those professors who I so much respected look down on me and judge me etc _ However I didn't study all these years to end up working for a company with no ethos. I didn't remain true to myself for nothing during a hard time in my life where even my loved ones didn't think I would make it. They would say:" People in your situation don't get out of it, they are all against you" but guess what I got the damn degree, I got the damn doctorate and if people 'above' have issues with me speaking about the reality of #aca#academia then I will do my own thing. There will always be people who will listen. _ Until now I still have some anxiety, trust me it was worse during my writing time. I remember I was reported 3 times at the least to the head of department even when I wasn't around uni ... I was told I was disrupting things and was not allowed to come in even when I had the right to, because it was the right thing to do, I get it that was the easiest course of action. What did those colleagues who sabotaged my experiments and did everything in their power to make me fail get, nothing! I keep on thinking to myself will I get myself in that situation again if I get a job? Will I be able to go through it etc. I guess now I know how to handle it because I spoke up when I had to. _ Yes it was worth it but it wasn't all roses and flowers and there is way more to the story than just my colleagues. Ultimately, my passion for my project and my family kept me sane and very few who I now call friends _ Don't be afraid to speak up, all that hard work wasn't done for nothing! #academia #mentalhealth #phdadvice #phdtips #diversityinacademia
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My days and nights have been for my thesis these days. I couldn't bring myself to celebrate the fact that I passed my viva, until I finish those thesis corrections. My viva was the most difficult 2+hours of my life and I didn't enjoy it. I was looking forward to an intellectually stimulating discussion with world experts in my field, but I guess I was wrong. I'm just extremely grateful that I don't have to go through another viva again 😭 #prayforme #science #piledhigheranddeeper #phd#phd #phdstudent #phdstruggles #phdproblems #phdexperiment #phd #biomedicalscience #protein #phdanxiety #phddepression #dontgiveup #widn #thesiswriteup #phdthesis #phdwriting #phdwriteup #womeninstem #phdenomenalphdemale #phdthesissubmission #phdviva #phdsubmission #naturescience #phdcareerstories #phdcomics
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