so where shall we start ?
it’s all so overwhelming and energy sucking and confusing . trying make to make sense of this life.
what on earth does permission to bloom even mean?
your story is my story.
there is no perfect life / family / marriage / scenario.
we are all in this together.
what is my story you might wonder ?
(stepping into by vulnerability.. uhhhh)
i burned down. the life i lived collapsed over me, in front of me, inside me - everything came down and i fell and shattered. i burned to the ashes and i went through a horrific divorce process. i lost my social network. i lost weight, i became a chain smoker to keep the anxiety at bay. my body reacted to what was happening internally.
and then there was just the smoldering ashes of myself left. i sat in those ashes for month. i didn’t leave the house. i surrendered to it all.
i just sat and let it engulf me - the loose, the grief, the dream, the love, the pain, the believe.
within this mud something magical happened:
i realized that i got another opportunity to choose and pick and redefine, rebirth myself.
this mud was full of nutrients.
in order to bloom i needed these nutrients
i didn’t know that then, but at this magical moment i did give myself the permission to bloom again.
it was the most painful and yet beautiful process.
the most precious gift to myself!!!!
i let it all go. no more holding on
no bad feelings. no victimizing.
acceptance of what is with the strong focus to rebirth myself.
i ripped my life apart
i questioned every aspect of myself
who i am ?
who do i need to become ?
what is no longer needed ?
what should i hold on to ?
what does love mean ?
how do i need to define friendships ?
what boundaries need to be installed ?
what about my sexuality?
do i still love my job?
what makes me thrive ?
how and where do i want to live ?
i trained as an end of life Doula
stepped back into my photography world
i am about to complete my spirtual life coach training
i am going to combine my gifts and the things i have learned and i want to help you to live a more fulfilled authentic life.
the time on earth is too short to not to .
Your story is my story
LETS BLOOM TOGETHER 🌸