I just got a surprise bill for my eye doctors for when I was kicked off my mom's insurance. We panicked when our gas and electric was almost $250 after living here for two weeks (we learned that it's basically a security deposit. who knew?). It's like everywhere I turn I'm hit with something new and discouraging or when I think I'm on track, my duties rush up on me are a lot more threatening and demanding. Worse of all, I'm not giving the people I love the best version of me. I come off as distant and uninterested in their lives.
But all of this, this is just life. I know life can be unfair and does not discriminate on who struggles and who lucks out. I'm overwhelmed, but I'm going to be okay because every day that passes, whether I think so or not, I'm working towards building a future that allows me to be the best version of myself.