Just me. Frustrated with myself again. If it's not my mind keeping me from work then it's my body. And sometimes both. Being sick at 24 and seeing how everyone else can function and I can't is just. . . .upsetting. But I know. I just know that something can be created out of this. Something positive. I'm not sure what that is. But I know one thing. I'll be here to find out. These feelings have created a negative feeling sometimes too much to handle. So what did I do ? Hurt myself. Drank. Drugged. And even attempted suicide. But I'm tired of not being in control of my life. And sobreity has opened my eyes to so much. I'm not going down that road again. So with everything in my body hurting. With every voice in my head saying to just give up. I'm here. And I always will be. Even if I just need to let these emotions flow through me and cry my heart out. But I will always clean my face and move forward and not look back. #reasonstorecover #sel#selfharmrecovery #suicideattemptsurvivor #suicideawareness #fibromyalgiaawareness #sob#sober #soberliving #sober #addiction #addictionrecovery #bipolardepression #bipolarrecovery #bipolarawareness #bpd #bpdawareness #bpdrecovery #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #gad #generalizedanxietydisorder #anx#anxietyeness #anxiety #anxietydisorder #ptsd #ptsdawareness #ptsdrecovery #posttraumaticstressdisorder #ano#anorexiarecovery #mentalhealthawareness #endthestigma #anorexiarecovery #selfharmawareness #selfharmrecovery
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Yes! Love this art by @frizzkidart This is so true. I often think that I must have to heal a certain way, with certain medications and treatments. The truth is there is no right or wrong way. Healing is a process and there are ups and downs. I am learning to trust my gut and be an advocate for myself. #chronicillness #chronicillnesswarrior #invisibleillnessawareness #invisibledisability #anklylosingspondylitis #fibromyalgia #spoonie #fibromyalgiaawareness #grateful #inspiration #hope #healing
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Long work week but off tomorrow! Going to try and get in a workout tonight. My hip has been bad but I have to get this weight back off I feel yucky! Which got me thinking. Please, Don’t ever take for granted healthy joints and a healthy body. I’ve been living with severe FM and DOA/DDD for 12 years now. I’m in some form/degree of pain from the moment I crawl out of bed til the moment I get back in it and sometimes even then. But I haven’t let it stop me from living a full life. But workouts are sporadic due to joint pain and even though I’ve lost 100 lbs I still fluctuate up and down 20 lbs in btwn flare ups. I used to HATE my appearance, my body. And I’ve worked painfully hard to get to where I’m ok with my curves now. My stretch marks and scars from over a dozen surgeries. I’ve accepted that my body doesn’t work like most people’s, it has limitations and when flare ups happen I have to adjust & accommodate for them. It’s called life. We all have things that limit us and once we accept that and remember what some of our bodies have been through, it’s really quite a blessing and miracle that some of us are even still able to work 40-50 hrs a week, hike, kayak, walk, workout to our bodies capability, enjoy physical relationships etc... Hell I’m just thankful each day to be alive when I came perilously close to not being. I’ll never be a Barbie doll. I’ll always have a few extra curves and more than a few extra lbs. But... I’m alive. I’m 47, I’m living with and surviving 3 invisible diseases. I’ve had 4 children. And lost one. 2 natural and 2 via c-sections, one of them a crash after my uterus ruptured during delivery and my son drowned inside me. I’ve had Hip and Back surgeries and at 35 was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Degenerative Disc Disease and Degenerative OsteoArthritus. So I’ve learned to love my body for the miracle it is. Curves, Scars, Body Pain and All. Because the alternative is unacceptable to me! I know my worth as a woman, even if I’m still judged by my looks alone. #invisabledisease #chronicpain #fibromyalgiaawareness #degenerativediscdisease #degenerativeosteoarthritis #loveyourself #curvygirl #staystrong #nevergiveup ♥️🍀
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Got the littles!....shes on the phone talking to dad 😇...making god knows what concoction in her kitchen! Lol will it be strawberries...corn and beans again! Lol he's making playdoh come out a trolls head! Lol...im frazzled...its too damn hot!...wheres the rain! Still! Lol 🤗😆❤😂 #fibro #fibrowarrior #chronicpain #fib#fib#fibromyalgiaeness #spo#spo#spooniesg #butyoudontlooksick #chronicpainwarrior #spoonie #spoonielife #fibromyalgiaawareness #men#meillness #everythinghurts #spoonieproblems #fibrofighter #me #copd #depression #anxiety #migraine #chronicillness #fibromyalgia #exhausted #tired #spoonies #chronicillnesswarrior #pain #purpleribbon #fibrosucks #life #mylife
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Another successful Salty Workshop! Thank you so much to everyone who came out this morning and thank you again @breatheandbendhotyoga for allowing me to bring this vision to life! Yoga and Halo Therapy have done wonders in helping me deal with my Fibromyalgia and I’m just so happy to be able to share them both with so many people! 🧡✨ #breatheandbendhotyoga #halotherapy #yinyoga #takeitwithagrainofsalt #saltyskin #fibromyalgiaawareness #fibrowarrior
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Sorry for the ugly picture I look a mess. 😖Today has been a day. I have been resting in bed most of the day and trying not let the pain take over. Tomorrow I am going to have a long lay in. I am really struggling with people around me not understanding how I feel, how do you guys explain to parents how you feeling . . . #chronicpain #chronicillness #spoonie #spoonielife #spooniewarrior #asthma #sciatica #ibs #depression #quotes #nurishnotpunish #fib#fib#fib#fibromyalgia #fibromyalgiaawareness #fibro #fibrowarriors #fibrofog #hypermobile #hypermobility #me #cfs #myalgicencephalomyelitis #chr#chronicfatiguesyndrome #invisibleillness #mentalillness #fibromyalgia #fibro #chronicfatigue #spoonieproblems #spooniestrong #spooniesunite
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Today when I 🌞 woke up, I told myself that I will get up and start this day with a 😊 smile on my face and a skip in my step. And it was going to be an 💚 AWESOME DAY. . And then...life happened. 😔 The first couple of appointments came and went and luckily i love ❤ what i do, so i felt pretty great despite the fact that something felt kind of off. And then I started feeling a bit 😷 sick. . And since that moment... I have been a puke 🤢 machine. Say what you will about my positivity (some think I am annoyingly cheerful), 🤷‍♀️ but even through this awful bug I've got going on, I am smiling and kicking ass 🤩 today. . Dont make excuses for negativity. 🚫 Push past it!! And now I am going home to nap...because even though I am happy, I am also a hot mess 😂...so I'll catch y'all later. ✌ . . . .
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