I'm always hesitant on taking photos of myself and very rarely post them when I do, but I'm feeling proud of myself, something that doesn't happen very often. Throughout my whole life I've lacked confidence, so much so that it has hindered nearly every aspect of my life. I've missed out on a lot of opportunities by simply avoiding them, not at the thought that I couldn't accomplish something great, but out of the fear that I was never good enough, never smart, brave, strong, or even cute enough to be chosen. It was really tearing me apart. So I decided to do something. Back in May I finally made a major step in my life, though most people wouldn't consider getting a gym membership anything spectacular, it has been a defining moment so far for me. I feel great physically, except when my body is screaming at me. But more importantly I'm starting to feel great mentally. I still have bad days, but the gym as been great therapy. I'm so glad a started going. Just to think five years ago, there were days, even weeks that I couldn't walk into a gas station at the fear of being judged is crazy. I've come a long ways and have so much farther to go. Wanna watch me soar?
I'm actually terrified to post this, but fuck it. Here it goes.