i'm finally feeling back to myself! hallelu! depression is an annoying beast. also i think i need to clarify that when i talk about my depression, i'm talking about medicated depression. bc obviously there is a huge difference. i think it's important for people to understand that just bc someone is taking medication for depression (or any mental illness), it doesn't mean they don't experience depression anymore, it just means they experience it differently. it allows me to experience more periods of "normalcy", and when depression hits it numbs the experience to a tolerable level. and it makes pulling myself out easier. so psa for anyone who has unmedicated depression, talk to your health care provider! and take the time to find the right medication for you.
my health and fitness routine plays a huge role in managing how i experience depression. no matter what my brain is experiencing, it can't ignore the blast of endorphins i give it when i exercise. endorphins reduce our perception of pain and trigger positive feelings in the body. so no matter how bad my depression may be, on a chemical level, my brain cannot ignore the positive chemical release. that is partially why i do continuous fitness programs, its a way for me to consistently arm myself against depression. fitness is part of my ladder i use to pull myself out of a hole. without fitness some key rungs would be missing and climbing out would be much harder.
health and fitness is about so much more than weight loss. i'm trying to do a better job lately explaining just how life-changing incorporating regular fitness into your life can be. so i hope i did an okay job explaining how fitness has benefited the mental health side of my life 😊
// I woke up in tears this morning..extremely thankful..// [palm sunday] began new life for me.
I got baptized [again] + I’ve never felt such peace.
The last 6 months have been trying to say the least. I’ve been in a szn of depression + have had to fight for my life more times than I can count. Most days are very dark but I serve a God that holds my hand + gives me strength to fight because He is the giver of life.
I don’t do everything right but this decision was the best one I could’ve ever made for myself. [new]ness of life. peace. healing.
Jesus died just so He could save me in times like this. I don’t deserve any of His love but I receive the dispensation of [grace] that He gives me daily.
God...I’m [grateful]. You kept me alive. [thank You]. 🖤