Today is my first day back in LA since the passing of my amazing grandmother Marian Wiseman. My first day out of the safe little bubble that was my family all together telling stories, sharing photos, trying to remember jokes. Today is the first day where I grieve. There are so many shoulda, coulda, wouldas that I’ve been feeling since she passed and I don’t know if those will ever go away. What will never go away was the fact that she taught me about beauty and laughter in so many ways. Rest In Peace my shining star.