Spirit. God. Angels. Spirit guides. I feel the anxiety creeping in. Will it be good enough? Am I good enough? Help me find the reminders. Remind me that I can be different without being less, and if my heart poured all it could into it- then it is good enough. I want to release these anxieties. I want to feel carefree. I want to be light. Please let me be light. Remember that feeling I felt today as I was painting Elijah’s library and listing to Moana. I felt confident in my book and was ready to roll out of the driveway on tour. It felt great. Then the questions came tumbling down into my head. Where do I go? How do I actually get people to buy my book? Do I have enough money to make this happen? Oh the worries. Take away the questions Sweet Spirit and give me guidance. Help me find my faith again. Send me the love I need and help me find the love within myself. Let me be light. I want to be light. Take all this negativity that surrounds me and lift it. I want to be light. I am simply trying the best I can. Help me be light. Thank you thank you thank you.
I met Pattie last year...she is one friend I never would have met if it weren’t for the 2 us taking a chance, ignoring our objections, and trusting in the process. Not only is Pattie a friend, but she is also my accountability each day because we “meet” to workout together via zoom. Did i mention she lives in Colorado?
Here is patties story since becoming a mom:
. ✅ The first photo was taken about one month after my first child was born. I had gained 75lbs and knew I had a long way to go. 🥓 I had exercised daily throughout my pregnancy but enjoyed way too many indulgences 😀 It's also when I first found Beachbody, P90X and I started my at-home fitness journey. I made a commitment to the program, doing it the best I could and lost almost all the weight I had gained.
✅ The second photo was just 15 months after the first and I was about 2 weeks away from delivering my second child. Another 75lbs gained enjoying all the treats!!
💪 The third photo is today! Over the course of both my postpartum journeys I lost over 150lbs. -- all at home.
People may say you can't get in shape at home, but I'm proof that it can be done. It wasn't always easy and I struggled with motivation some days (still do), but I gained a part of ME back I had lost during pregnancy and my early days of being a Mom --- an athlete and a fitness lover.
My transformation goes MUCH deeper than just the weight gained and lost. It was in-part about becoming ME again.
Hustle Saturday working with 3 different clients today. Making offers and crossing fingers to get accepted + working with 4 internet clients at the same time while showing properties. I am so tired but so happy for today’s work. My clients are the BEST!💥🤟🏼
While I’ve been working on my branding these last few days, I’ve been learning more and more about myself. I’ve also been learning more about the relationships I have with others, how I spend my time, and what I need to do to move forward in building this business to reach its full potential.
I think many of us can relate to this thought process: I’m too hard on myself. OR I want to be like that. OR I want to look like that. What we aren’t realizing, is that we are 100% capable of becoming whatever it is that we want to be. (As cliché as that sounds.)I think the hardest part is finally removing our heads from….well...you can figure that out...and just making it happen. Committing to the process of reaching our goals is such a hard thing to do.
As I said in my post the other day, there will ALWAYS be reasons to NOT do something. “I’m too tired, I don’t have time, I don’t know how to do that, I wouldn’t be good at that.” Those are all phrases I’ve heard from people and they’re all phrases that I’ve said myself. It is really up to you on how you approach your goals and aspirations. It’s up to you how you live your life and what you do with your time.
The truth of the matter is, the change doesn’t happen overnight. There isn't an instant fix. It takes A LOT of hard work and dedication to reach your goals and even go beyond them. The change you’ll see in yourself when you take charge of your life is amazing. It’s an overwhelming feeling of pride and confidence. You need to believe that you CAN do this. You can be the badass you were meant to be. I’m here to help. Reach out when you’re ready. #goals#grandcanyon#takemeback#fitnessmotivation#lifemotivation#icandothis#dontsettle
It’s hard to wake up every day. I’m tired. Even though it’s only January, I’ve never been challenged so hard in my life. Nursing is not an easy route. I wake up at 5 every morning, I study my ass off every night, I learn new medical terms every day which some I can barely pronounce OR spell, I (try to) memorize charts and ranges of lab work, I maintain a healthy relationship, I meal prep for breakfast/lunch/dinner for the week, I spend time with family, I read multiple chapters a night, my body aches all over all day long, I’ve had constant headaches that grows stronger by the day, and I’ve been having more clinical days which means more hands on experience with patients than I ever have before, but no. I’m not complaining. I’m not bragging. I’m not asking for pity. But I’ve never loved doing something so much. I’m doing what I want. I’m doing what I want to become and I’ve never been happier. Nursing challenges me every day - from assessing every patient to critically thinking about diagnoses and medication. With all the sweat, tears, and anxiety attacks, I keep telling myself I only have 5 more months. June is the end of one chapter and the start to my career in the medical field. #futurenurse#5moremonths#icandothis
How many of you have been here, hiding in a closet? Holding yourself, saying “why me?”
The boy who's comfortable staying in my tummy hence a csect has to be done to force him out to the world. Haha. My rainbow baby.
I lost 2 within a year and by the next I was traumatize to be pregnant again. I fear and too much overthinking occurs during this pregnancy. I was emotionally unstable because I was scared I would lose this one too.
Somehow with the will of Allah, the second happened. You have no idea how happy we all were to have a playmate for abang #ahmadzharif and someone we can call adek. Another part of us.
Everything mummy learn and experience with your brother, it was easier with you...for now. Huhu. Whats amazing is how much your brother loves you so dearly and always attempt to attend to your needs even if his wants are put aside.
Nevertheless mummy and ayah love you both the same. Be it in your bad mood or good, misbehave or well behave, you both are equally special in our hearts.
I breastfed your brother for exact 10months and he was a natural, even you too. By Allah's will and if its your rezeki, we will try to go further than 10months adek! Bear with me the low supply or times when mummy is in pain and I cant latch you for a full feed. Slowly but surely.
Fixed a homemade vinaigrette to go on my salad at dinner tonight. I was skeptical at first but it was really good! I'll be making it from now on! I couldn't decide between burgers and taco salad so I made taco burgers, using homemade taco seasoning & no bun, of course, and had a big veggie salad and some fruit on the side. The burgers were extremely delicious! I took a pic but it was shitty lol because I'm a terrible food photographer. 😂
Today was a much better day than yesterday! I felt pretty good all day long! #Whole30 Day 20 done! 10 more to go!
They say that a goal should always have measure of success and I am starting it with my base line. 😐 Im 8pounds heavier than my normal weight and the goal is to reach that normal weight at 50 pounds by...when???!??? 😬😬😣😴 and how???😩😩😩 #determined#icandothis#roadtosexierMe