Sunlight on books. I have always had a library- a big library until I moved here I finally said goodbye to hundreds and hundreds of books. Books that I had moved back-and-forth across the country several times. Now I have a very very small selection of just my favorites and very little space for them. It's funny how when you try to set boundaries with people and they just disregard them. And... keep giving you books that you have no place for- in your two bedroom condo πŸ€” I'm sure this is something we are all guilty of myself as well. So, going into the holiday season it is well worth being thoughtful of the person to whom you are giving. What do they really NEED. Most people I know, don't need anything and have expressed this over and over in the last two months. In fact they need less of everything. What people are lacking is quality time with friends and loved ones. They are lacking help with projects around the house or with their children or elderly parents. Nobody needs more crap. Take some time to rethink your holiday traditions, how much do you spend? How much time do you put into all of it, how much do you eat and how does it affect your body? How could you harness all of this energy time and money in a different way to give outwardly to the world community, to perhaps purge your household of things rather than intake more, to celebrate healthy foods that on the other end of the holiday will bring you out refreshed and cleansed - all while still keeping some of the backbone of the traditions that are important to you? β€œFor it is in giving that we receive.” St. Francis of Assisi #holidayspirit #giving #wellness #holistic #healing #volunteer #change #IndiaDwells
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Emptying a coat pocket ... somehow missed on the first round, memories from a love lost long ago. A tattered butterfly πŸ¦‹ on a bobby pin, a target from a #coneyisland boardwalk #shootinggallery a chocolate coin from dinner @peterlugersteakhouse . Steak for Two , of course, no menus and cranky waiters. Perfect Manhattans from Sal at the bar and gorgeous Amarone with dinner that wrapped around the meat like a cocoon. Creamed spinach that will take you to heaven. Kisses under the Williamsburg Bridge and clear bright moonlight in the shadows of a doorway on the waterfront. Gazing at the NYC skyline back when those Brooklyn streets were empty. A million lit windows reaching up to meet a billion twinkling stars, the Towers - like sparklers ablaze with life, the FDR, a disco millipede. And love and leftovers. #indiadwells
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#gremlin #pov πŸ˜‚ sometime if you can only open your eyes for one movie it needs to be a classic like #gremlins . Freakin #gizmo rocked my #tween world SO hard! I mean come ON with the cuteness! I'm pretty sure why this is why I am a cat person now, it's the closest you can get although Barney the dog is completely rad 🀘🏼. There are so many incredible clips in this movie but gizmo in the Barbie dream car curve that cannot possibly be missed and how could I forget that Spike had a gun? Oh @stevenspielberg_official thanks for being you. And I love your "Moms" - The mom in this movie completely kicked some ass!!! Everyone is just so authentic. This movie absolutely stands the test of time and was really fun to watch it made me very nostalgic and gave me a happy feeling. Also not too loudloud or flashy or as brain feels like it's seeping out my ears ... meh. #stories #storiesheal #christmasmovies #selfcare #chronicpain #chronicillness #keepinkeepingon #pushthrough #IndiaDwells #exhausted
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Dad. -1974. World AIDS Day. RIP. Keep the conversation alive. πŸ™πŸ˜” Hancock Shaker Village, Massachusetts. #aidsawareness #indiadwells
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The things you find when you are putting away the porch for the season. #birds #dragonflies #Feathers #GoOutside #lookaround #founditems #brass #IndiaDwells #mindfullness
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Because.......#wristbands 🀘🏼 Unpacking and rewashing from #mothocide2016 #chefgear that became gardening gear, I also used to use as construction gear, or just any sweaty gear pretty much will now become #yogagear ... so nice that these are so incredibly durable, after years and years of what they have been through. Memories of having to put out a brunch for 400 people by myself because we were down at cook to begin with and my other cook didn't show up because he was in jail for example. πŸ€€πŸ˜‚πŸ˜ Oh the GLAMOUR of restaurant life! This is one of the things that makes me laugh and also makes me and every other chef pissed off when people casually say, "yes it's always been my dream and I think that one day I definitely will open up a restaurant." I always want to say to them depending on what their profession is... "yes I think I will definitely become an architect after I retire" Despite what my Mother liked to remind me of, being a chef and a restaurateur IS A hard earned and incredibly difficult profession. You need the equivalent of a masters degree to do this job and you need the stamina of four 20 -year-olds. Owning a restaurant is like having twin two-year-old toddlers who never get any older as a single mother, 95% of the time you're exhausted and filled with #stress and #anxiety and worried about money and hungry and wondering when to shower and you never ever get a break and 5% of the time you get an ecstatic moment when they do something awesome like walk or say their first words in the equivalent of a great New York Times review or outstanding Zagat rating (that was a thing πŸ˜‚) Not a hobby. These wristbands have as many tears as they sweat. #cheflife #cheflifestyle #chefclothing #validation #Lazy πŸ˜‚πŸ™„πŸ–•πŸΌπŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈ#whyistayed #memorylane #catharsis #indiadwells
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Blossom Dearie and Dancing Rainbows 🌈 #IndiaDwells
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Ask.And you shall receive.πŸ™Last year after so much was destroyed by the Moths & even purging so many things I never thought I would need clothes again but I have burned through all of my #yoga pants, tank tops & hoodies I have worn that were my size.All of the pants are completely shot as generally I would be rotating an ice pack down the back of my waistband in my lumbar and sacral area & my tank tops& zipups are cashed. I knew that I needed New things & in the back of my mind I knew that there were things in a size down in the Cryovac bags I just didn't know what.The timing could not be better as I am just starting the #gamechanger #yogatrapeze @yogabodyfitness and a friend moved the bags to the living room last night and just found this entire new yoga wardrobe- #theuniverseprovides πŸ––πŸΌ I have struggled long & hard and just gone from being officially #Obese to #overweight. Very difficult when one is not able to move very much but I have integrated deliberate movements and see my daily life which will stay with me forever & continually strengthen my entire body. I have changed my #Diet to A modified #AntiinflammatoryDiet, this happened slowly and organically and was actually very easy to do.. #FAT it has become almost like profanity in America and yet #Obesity The number one killer, particularly #HeartDisease for women, is hardly ever targeted directly by primary care doctors. More often than not doctors WILL NOT spearhead this discussion with you. Most health problems in this country lay in the root of #poordiet and lack of exercise. This must be addressed in healthcare and followed up with #IntegratedMedicine programs. Doctors have to be brave- grow a pair and just tell us we are overweight. You can love your #Self and your #senseofself, but it is not OK to simply embrace an unhealthy body if it leads to health issues. After a lifetime of struggling with my weight I feel incredibly strongly about this issue. I hope to continue the conversation on my blog, IndiaDwells : coming soon! #wellness #holistichealth #holisticnutrition #Indiadwells #holisticlife
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#silverlining of #mothocide2016 Christmas came early 😍. That's what it feels like! And look πŸ‘€... Houston... we have....a FLOOOOOOOORRRR!!!! Woot Woot!! And this light! Glorious LIGHT! Pouring in through the largest window in my home and the door that has been shut for and entire year and last night I was able to turn lights in that room which have been running 24/7-365. OFF. Such #closure what a great feeling. There is so much work to do but I have great friends, help, and support. I have learned to live in #controlledchaos and think only about "What is the next ONE ☝️thing I must do?" You do that, and then the next, then next, then next. Otherwise you feel like you are #Drowning all of the time. Be #Productive NOT #busy . Try to find the good in even the worst situations. I had forgotten about so many of these purses it was an utter delight and I squealed last night as they tumbled out of several vacuum sealed bag wrapped in blankets. Each one bringing back memories of wonderful events and times and making me think of things that I will have to look forward to. Having to live without an entire room in a two bedroom condo for a year and now all of a sudden I will have it back it will seem like my home will be increasing exponentially!!! I truly hope that this will be able to be done before Christmas so that I might have a tree but if not that's OK the most important thing is to pace myself. If it doesn't happen I have a lifetime of Christmases left πŸ˜„. #babysteps #goals #accomplishments #win #purses #handbag #dressingroom #IndiaDwells #mindfulness #breathe #smile #glee #fashionheals #whateverittakes #movenourishbelieve
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Surgery scheduled!!!! End of January, #spinalcordstimulator will be replaced with #Intellis, the AMAXING new #MedicalTechnology from #Medtronic . This will be another building block in the new home of my life. 🏑 ❀️ my original stimulator though it has been very helpful was placed incorrectly by a shitty #neurosurgeon who continued afterwards to give me terrible medical treatment to the extent of #misdiagnosis and #malpractice. Last year I fired 23 doctors-my entire extended care team I kept only my dentist. If that's not a recommendation off the charts for a dentist I don't know what is! The new #careteam of doctors I have now is more compact and so much more tuned in to the pipeline of modern medicine and #wellness . This new technology plus the fact that it will be placed correctly and I will continue to get the excellent care, support and advocacy will help keep me moving forward. #movenourishbelieve Don't forget. Your doctors work for YOU! #Advocate for yourself, but if you get to the point that you feel like you are doing their jobs for them and you are not getting support or good treatment then fire them and get new people. I waited too long, I was tied up with terrible insurance issues, and other problems. I thank my #luckystars now that I feel #hope again. #fishorcutbait applies to everything...... Eliminate the #deadweight and #toxicity in your life and set yourself free, think of the many things that this applies to. You have the freedom and power to take care of and protect your self. #standup #whyistayed #getout #integrativemedicine #miracles #bepositive #bepowerful #Selfcare #IndiaDwells via @RiplApp
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These beautiful kind folk and their big lovely family have welcomed me to yet another of many wonderful Thanksgivings over the years with them. They are truly special people and I am so lucky to know them. #ittakesavillage #community #friends #friendsgiving #thanksgiving #IndiaDwells #selfcare
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Happy Thanksgiving to One And All πŸ™ #nofilter #indiadwells
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#nofilter #vignette Around the house #sunlight #jewelry Thanksgiving Day ... starting to get ready, have an #earache and #tenitis like bananas today but am so grateful to be joining old friends for this day.... Now , what to wear? #dressup πŸ‘— Fun!!!!! Even if I were to end up going in my yoga pants and a sweatshirt today these fine folks would welcome me with open arms and #NoJudgment , and I would still go if I could make it. That is certainly something to be thankful for. I have spent quite a few thanksgivings with this large extended family and they are such lovely people and I look forward to what this day will bring, and I'm grateful that I think I have the energy regardless of my am balance and ear/ head pain to git it on!!! Let's DISCO πŸ’ƒ!!! #selfcare #foodheals #wellness #holistichealth #community #ittakesavillage #movenourishbelieve #IndiaDwells
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A #poem I wrote about #oysters when I learned to write in #cursive back in the day. I gave up making my "I's" like that for India... I just could never get it right it was never natural and they always looked awkward. But I think this is is pretty fine piece of #poetry . And oysters rule. #IndiaDwells
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#nofilter My house may be a very finely balanced #controlledchaos but I love it. #Color such an important part of #Selfcare #orange me feel vibrant and #Alive it makes me feel #sexy makes me feel #Connected to the #Earth makes me feel like there is #Growth happening in and around me. In my kitchen living room and dining room. Great deal of this color. #Mindfulness speaks to all of our circumstances and how they affect us . Both what we choose to put around us and how we intake our surroundings. #fengshui is of course a huge part of this . #music sounds #animals #plants #foods #light . Include all of these things to make your #sanctuary in your #home . #IndiaDwells #catsheal #dwelling #holistic #wellness #integrativemedicine #holistichealth #healing #yog#yogatrapeze @yogabodyfitness #yoga
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18 years old in #Egypt at the #greatpyramids of #giza . Found #slide from back when my dad used to show #Slideshows of stuff. What is so sardonic to me about this photo is that I'm wearing a New England Patriots hat. If I had only known πŸ˜’ . #founditems #scrapbook #memories #IndiaDwells
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#mothocide2016 is now 2017 and Will definitely bleed into 2018. It's definitely been a gigantic nightmare. A huge huge huuuuuuuge #stressor that has increased my #anxiety #pain and #depression. It should never have become the situation that it did. There is a reason that one chooses to live in a condo and pay condo fees. But enough about that. The #Silverlining of this entire thing is that although I have been #Purging my belongings since I moved here this nightmare forced me to literally touch every last tiny item I owned. Everything down to individual bobby pins had to be sorted. In doing so, not only were many things destroyed and lost forever but I got rid of many many things. Also in living without all of the things that have been packed away for a year, although my life is limited as I am often #homebound and I don't need, for example as many business suits, I will be getting rid of even more things as I unpack and rewash these 400 loads of laundry again. Once I am finally able to remove the clothing for my living room and reclaim this room my house will suddenly seem like a mansion. So The moral of the story is that no matter how shitty the situation - and believe me even though this one made me so incredibly angry, I would not wish it on my ANYONE - there is a bright side. FIND IT. #moths #lightenyourload #moveon #bullying #bullyingawareness #wellness #mindfulness #holistichealth #organicpestcontrol #IndiaDwells
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My baby girl says HUSHHHHHH Mama....... Part of my morning #dailypractice now is ten minutes of dedicated time with this beauty who lies right along my #meridian line purring like a coffee grinder as I pet her and look intently at her. Not only is it intensely calming and centering but as I have mentioned many times, studies have proven that the tone of cats purring helps in the #healing bones. Afterwards I do my #bedyoga and then do my #dailyaffirmation . I've TALKED about doing this for a year. But talking is not doing. It's been life changing. Setting the tone of my day with these simple #Selfcare exercises have stretched my mind and body to a healthier place. #brickbybrick Day by Day , #rebuild #journey #catsheal #integrativemedicine #wellness #holistichealth #IndiaDwells #SCI #spinalcord #chronicillness #chronicpain #FBSS #PCS #chakras #chakrasystem
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Every single weeknight in high school @georgeschool my dear friend Marshall Julie and I would spend 30 minutes before study hall watching Jeopardy together in the small TV room off the main game room in the basement of the boys dorm. Between the two of us we could typically nail the entire game and it was always really fun to see which one of us beat the other. After my #TBI one of the exercises recommended by the neurologists to help with #PCS is trivia and it has been fun to start watching @jeopardy again. The Tournament of Champions has been a mind push, I was happiest when one of the answers was - What is "The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrok." one of my most favorite poems and pieces of literature ever, and the clue was an unusual line from it. Most disappointing was they dropped in Van Goghs "Starry Night" in a Double Jeopardy round with a clue that had five clues in it... high school competition round one at best. Some days.... the answers are like spitfire.... some days they are there but I can't pull the card catalog open.. it's like the drawer is stuck. Practice- repair- exercise - repair. I know what I will be reading tonight...Eliots poem with 25 years of scratched notes... every time I see something new in that genius prose. #poetry #braingames #concussion #concussions #coma #braininjury #aphasia #gofish #selfcare #IndiaDwells
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Just as long as I have breath, I must answer "Yes," to life; though with pain I made my way, still with hope I meet each day. If they ask what I did, well tell them I said "Yes," to life. SING 🎢 SING 🎢 SING 🎢 AS LOUD AS YOU CAN #thestruggleisreal #chronicpain #chronicillness #chronicfatiguesyndrome #chronicpainwarrior #spoonie #spoonielife #ALS #cancer #fibromyalgia #mentalillness #SCI #immunodeficiency #invisibleillness #lupus #chronicnervepain #inflammation #anxiety #depression #movenourishbelieve #staystrong #journey #catharsis #changeisgood #silverlining #IndiaDwells
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This #chu#church/a> was made for me way way back in the day when my lovely Miss Thea Grant was doing some #millinery work. I love it ! It's a double Grant day as I wore my treasured heart necklace, a @theagrantdesign classic . As always, I got so many wonderful compliments and it makes me feel warm to have this heart so close to my own. I ran into a dear friend after church, a woman in her 90's Who lived in my building for 50 years with her husband who was born here, as well as another parishioner also in her 90s. The three of us had coffee- and talked about art and the ballet and history and architecture. It was such a lovely and unexpected surprise. I had been thinking about Mary just moments before I saw her and she said she had been thinking of me as well! #kismet . #Friendships and #Companionship Feed our soul. Every little brick that you lay in your house of #pain will either make it stronger or make it weaker. If you can't get out of your house because you are #Homebound then you must invite people in. No one who matters will judge your mess, because every single person has their own pain in their own mess to some degree. Have a cuppa tea with someone even if you are in your bed in your pajamas. Or slap on some lipstick πŸ’„ .... just because, maybe it makes you feel good. Do WHATEVER IT TAKES. Brick by brick , second by second, day by day.... it will add up. Sometimes it will all come crashing down no matter how hard you work and then you just get back on the horse. Stronger than last time. #chronicpain #chronicillness #spoonie #spoonielife #integrativemedicine #wellness #community #ittakesavillage #holistichealth #holistichealing #church #fashionheals #IndiaDwells #spinalcordstimulator #SCI #TBI #PCS #FBSS
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Ahhhh it seems eons ago when I got these- one of my MOST FAVORITE pair of #earrings made by my dear lovely friend Miss Thea Grant of @theagrantdesign .... probably almost 20 years now! Besides of course being fantastical glittering gold circles hanging from my lobes they are like portable #WindChimes , tinkling into my ears everywhere I go!! To die for, a true #treasure. Jordan Marsh #vintage brown zephyr wool wraparound 3 +1 button wool scarf c.1965 . #ombre lip @maccosmetics @chanelofficial @idminerals @urbandecaycosmetics - Naked Illuminated Aura #pressedpowder (best thing Everrr) I know it's not for everyone... we are all beautiful in the skin that we are born in but for me personally on SOMEDAYS a little #Lipstick goes a long way. On other days I feel much more #Beautiful without it! Be the you that you were meant to be! Today it was 3 minutes to a better feeling me- which made the rest of my day feel less painful and more positive! #selfcare #fashionheals #feelingpretty #musicheals #soundheals #scarves #JordanMarsh #chronicpainwarrior #chronicpainsurvivor #movenourishbelieve #thestruggleisreal #beyourself #IndiaDwells #integrativemedicine #holistichealth #alternativehealing #wellness
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#nofilter The last 24 hours has been this spot speaking to me. HUGE eggs on each side of my spine under my skin... just sitting there. When I push them. Lightning ⚑️ Explosions . When I leave them.... occasionally crippling in a variety of ways. But I'm still growing #stronger Those eggs... they come and go... like on Gremlins. But these two are gnarly... moving and wiggling around underneath where they have sliced into my skin, cutting me open like a side of beef and going at me with bone saws and scalpels. Gnarly. Getting surgery? Watch the video first. It's not like lifting the hood- tinkering around in there then just shutting it and having you purr like a kitten. It's a weird place to touch... one of many #battlescars . They'll go into another in two months to replace old with new technology on this #cyborg. I wish I could be awake to see the insanity... #thefuturewereinit but still totally brutal medieval #surgery . Fucking. Staplegun. πŸ™…πŸ» #chronicpain #chronicillness #SCI #TBI #PCS #FBSS #PTSD #spinalcordstimulator #nervepain #spoonie #spoonielife #movenourishbelieve #scar #chronicpainwarrior #thestruggleisreal #IndiaDwells
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Thanks to @anna_curtis_007 with the great eye who captures one of the best hanging on a sexy dirty functional section of a @thecomedystore hallway . Oh My... @sandrabernhards is a gold standard in my book. It bugs me when folks describe her as 'ahead of her time' WTF? #sex and #sexuality #womensrights #equality #equalityforall #lgbt #lgbtq #mysogyny #abuse these aren't "new" issues, they are simply being nationally publicly addressed FINALLY. So instead, I choose to call her a #pioneer and one who used #comedy and scathing #wit to bring important issues to the forefront of the medias attention. Brava Brava ! She's also in a few of my fave movies ... go watch #HudsonHawk she is suchhhh an over the top AMAXING #villianess and I think perhaps our @ladygaga took a thing or two from that character πŸ’₯πŸ’‹Watch something funny today! #girlcrush #redhead #gapteeth #laughterheals #girlpower #integrativemedicine #holistichealth #wellness #movenourishbelieve #IndiaDwells #PCS
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Even when you're running on fumes, you still need to strengthen your #core to help hold up your #spine . I feel like I can hardly move and still have a bunch to do tonight, again, before another busy day tomorrow but integrating #rehab exercises into the end of planned breaks is critical. After #stretching out some #breathing a few leg lifts a #pelvictilt s help loosen tight painful hips, lumbar, and legs. #FunSocks are always good and super #70's inspirational #catposter totes doing its job 😸 #integrativemedicine #holistichealth #movenourishbelieve #exhausted #spoonie #spoonielife #converseonestar #kneesocks #SCI #TBI #PCS #nervedamage #spinalcordstimulator #healthyself #tiredofbeingtired #chronicpain #chronicillness #IndiaDwells
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'Perfer et obdura, dolor hic tibi proderit olim.' Over Two Thousand years later and the wisdom of #Ovid still resonates out of his 15 book 'anti-epic' #Metamorphoses . All about #transformation and undergoing changes. To and from, back and forth... the struggles, failures, triumphs. #affirmations and #mantra are important, they give you #strength and #power . Feel them , #breathe into them , hold your hand to your heart and close your eyes, look yourself in the eyes in the mirror and SEE yourself. Do. Go. Grow. #integrativehealth #integrativemedicine #wellness #hol#holisticth #holistic #poetry #movenourishbelieve #spoonie #spinalcordstimulator #TBI #PCS #SCI #chronicpain #thestruggleisreal Thanks to @nycpaindoc for sharing this and reminding me of such a Wonderful idea. Always remember that everything has a #silverlining somewhere- no matter how much crud it's covered in . #IndiaDwells
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RECLAIMING. Lately it's been less one step forward two steps back and more of a back and forth with some wobbly progress. Keyword #progress πŸ€— It's happened before so one gets hesitant about #disappointment but you have to go for it 150% anyhow or else you are sure to lose. Last night I was too exhausted to get up and eat but I SLEPT like the dead. #pain woke me at 4am so I did some #meditation #affirmations #stretching #bedyoga and then while I had my morning coffee I did a quick clean on this incredible lamp that I found in an abandoned antique store overgrown with vines and plants when I was 21 next to the apartment I lived in on a riverbank. Brought it back to life in 5 minutes and polished the Hope chest I made in woodshop @georgeschool using #SCI #therapy #core movements. Reclaimed this corner of my home which gives me joy, from crappy paperwork which had never before bled over onto this sacred surface. Every movement, every moment counts. #IndiaDwells #integrativemedicine #corepractice #alternativehealth #holistichealth #movenourishbelieve #sacredspace #healthyself #journey #moveforward #spoonie #spoonielife #chronicillness #chronicpain
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When one of your all time #besties and most favourite people in the world drops in from home. This big guy @_doughbull_ and I.... we NEVER have fun. I mean, we definitely have had many serious discussions about our concern for the lack of silliness in our friendship. SYKE!!! #lifers #summercamp #brooklyn @fvalumni @frostvalleyymca #ittakesavillage #community #loyalty #friendship #unconditional #lau#laughter #gratitude The more social connection and less isolation you can have when suffering from #chronicpain the lower your painnumber will be. Sometimes it seems impossible when you haven't changed clothes or eaten or your house just SUCKS. But your peeps love you. 20 minutes for an occasional coffee- keep your door open and ask for visits. People and #laughter make life better. #integrativemedicine #holistichealth #alternativemedicine #spoonie #chronicillness #IndiaDwells
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The Anatomy of a Shoe πŸ‘ . My Mother bought these beautiful delicate midnight blue satin @brunomagliofficial #highheels in Bologna Italy when she was about 19, circa 1960. As many fashion items I have them on display in my home. The "I" in Magli wore out under her heel but with a magnifying glass you can see it and you can feel the stamp when you trace it with your finger. These were not play shoes I could only wear them on those evenings when she was going to wear them out and I sat and watched her put on her make up. The details are stunning, design perfection, objet d'arte. One small three minute repair is my little meditative thing for the day over coffee that has nothing to do with life crap. You have to just take a second every day to do one thing to make your surroundings better. One ☝️ thing at a time, one day at a time. A foundation becomes walls which becomes rooms which get a roof until finally you have a house. One ☝️ brick at a time. #selfcare #fashion #fashionheals #objetdart #spoonie #chronicpain #chronicillness #integrativemedicine #holistichealth #alternativemedicine #IndiaDwells
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5 am rise. Practice is Everything. #dailyaffirmation #bedyoga #stretching #min#mindfulness , #rolfing and #acupressure with YogaBalls from @yogabodyfitness . I learned a new perspective in the #researchstudy I am a currently part of. #chronicpain is like always having a small child with you while you are walking through life. You must hold that child's hand, accept that child is there, nurture and pay attention to that child to get where you are going, but you need not always focus all of your attention on it. You can't let go of its hand lest it gets away from you and has an accident. But as long as you are simply always #mindful of it, gain #acceptance that it is with you on your #journey , you will eventually get where you are going. Sometimes this child is a gigantic pain in your ass it will throw a tantrum for no reason lie down on the sidewalk and completely derail your day, your week, your life. And of course literally rather than metaphorically, it will do so while kicking you repeatedly in shins . #Visualizing this new concept was incredibly helpful to me and something I had not heard before. I hope it helps others . πŸ™ #IntegrativeMedicine #alternativemedicine #holistichealth #mindoverbody #movenourishbelieve #spoonie #selfcare #selfcaretips #IndiaDwells #breathe #bodyscan
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My Faith and Practice which I received the first day of my attendance at the school which changed my life forever. As a Birthright #Quaker my family did attend Meeting when I was a small child, but I was too small to remember. Frankly, my nuclear family did not instill the pillars of Quakerism in us. I sought out World religions at an early age on my own out of curiousity and thankfully The George School @georgeschool , my Quaker high school continued that education. Quakers value the lessons found in all faith and I continued to learn them during my time at a Quaker college as well. Whatever your beliefs may be, I believe there is a commonality within all of us- for some it is a spirit for some simply humanity. Whatever it is, may we be quiet and take heed of it . #IndiaDwells. PS: the red page markers come from my Nana's small bible which she got in Jerusalem πŸ˜‡
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Celebrating what is the dwindling days of summer #CSA #FarmShare stunning #peaches and #raspberry with my morning #muesli #hea#healthy . #apples are already here and will soon be in my every morning #regime . This delicious #breakfast has kept me so satisfied and happy and helped me on my #weightlossjourney to get back to and discover how I can eat whatever I want and be #healthy and maintain my healthy weight. As soon as I am able to start doing more movement #rehab for my spine I will be so much stronger and my #core will help support me and I will be able to shed weight compressing my spine even faster. I have sort of accidentally fallen into a mostly #plantbased diet with some dairy and only occasionally will I have meat now, @ every three months or so. As a lifelong chef I'm as surprised as anyone! But I'm so happy and I feel like my lifelong struggle with weight is over. NOW.... #movement is key. Everyday for months I've been doing all I can, a jump is about to happen so keep your 🀞! @stillmansfarm @stilllifefarm #MoveNourishBelieve #TheBarriersWeFace #thestruggleisreal #IndiaDwells #fightforyourlife #spoonie #SpoonieLife @bobsredmill #rawfood #oats #grains
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Because it's a rainy day. Or every day. Rub my tummmmmmyyyyy! #catsofinstagram #cats_of_instagram #CatsHeal #naps #adoptdontshop #snuggles #IndiaDwells
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#nofilter If you put healthy food in your refrigerator you will eat healthy food. This #vegetarian #vegan red #curry with #sprouted red #quinoa tastes like rich succulent decadent stew. Topped with unsweetened #coconut flakes and #peanuts if you like it's the bomb! #cauliflower was the centerpiece of this dish , my fave #cruciferous veg, I literally ate two entire heads of it last week. #coconutmilkpowder was used instead of canned milk and it was GREAT! I am super psyched to discover it, lots more uses, much less pantry space, and smaller #carbonfootprint . All veggies from my friendly #farmer @stillmansfarm @stilllifefarm support your local #farmersmarket and #EatYourGreens ! Sit down and enjoy your food, practice #mindfulness of the flavors , colors, textures. Think of where it came from and how it came to be. Becoming connected to your food is an important practice of #SelfCare and how your body processes what you eat. #NaturesFastFood #EarthCandy #IntegrativeMedicine #Intuitive #HolisticHealth #AlternativeMedicine #foodheals #foodhealthy #MoveNourishBelieve #IndiaDwells
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#nofilter The enormous amount of rain this summer has made #moss and #lichen grow all over the #trees . A #silverlining of having to go from a fifth gear person to a first gear person is that you notice things that you may have never seen before. #mindfulness #IntegrativeMedicine #HolisticHealth #SelfCare #IndiaDwells #Spoonie
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#Pain is terrible can't sit, even for two minutes. List as long as Route 66 that I'm crawling on. I can't get #frustrated about it because I'm doing everything I can all the time and that's all I can do. After my last procedure I was moving so well and my average pain was down so much, this time it put a dent in it but that's all. I have had an extraordinary amount of meetings and appointments- a lot of in and out of cars which is awful, lately. Maybe that is exacerbating something but I can't say. I tried my standing desk and the spinal pressure is too much as well . Currently half on my bed half on the floor . #Rest is not helping. Annoying. #ballandchain #SCI #neurologicaldisorder #nervepain #neuroplasticity #spoonie #SpoonieLife #ChronicPain #chronicillness #fightforyourlife #spinalcordstimulator #spinalcordresearch #TBI #PCS #neuropathy #radiculopathy #IndiaDwells
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I can't even imagine what Heaven could possibly look like for this man but may his spirit continue to rock out the cosmos πŸ’₯πŸ’•. Hugh was an epic visionary, sexual revolutionary, and hands down genius. In our buttoned up, Puritanical America opened doors into the bedroom that had been ever before shameful, and celebrated what was inside. Over the years the magazine has continued to get smarter and have even better articles. To this day, I have never stopped wishing for an opportunity to have gone to a Playboy Club, just once. Always thinking ahead...He will be laid to rest next to Marilyn Monroe. #Playboy #PlayboyClub #SexHeals #hughhefner #IndiaDwells
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#nofilter Lightly flash broiled #rootvegetables , #radishes #turnips #potatoes #carrots #kohlrabi #beets . All this dish of beauty has added that's not a root veg is #garlic and #onion - always those yummy healthy aromatics, a bit of olive oil, Italian #seasalt and cracked #blackpepper. The explosion of colors flavors and textures is marvelous! 4 colors of carrots, icicle radishes, chiraboga red and golden beets, 2 kinds of potatoes gorgeous little turnips chunks of stunning purple kohlrabi. All courtesy of my wonderful Farmers at @stillmansfarm @stilllifefarm where each week the #csa #FarmShare is a cornucopia of awesomeness. #PrepAheadEatBetter ..this is a perfect example. Cool it up and eat for days, mix some with #greens, make a mini #frittata but just keep on doing the good and #eatyourveggies ! #NaturesFastFood #EarthCandy #antioxidants #foodheals #IntegrativeMedicine #HolisticHealth #IndiaDwells
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Super 70's gold mirrored elevator. As we say at @georgeschool @georgeschoolclassof91 #MindTheLight #IndiaDwells
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Miss Frances got a #deskjob . #paperweight 😹😸 I love this little CandyPants, RomanWrestler, ChickenChirp ( oh.. and there are now, #Nicknames in THIS house πŸ˜‰) so much.😍 Impossible to believe that when she came home with me she was so badly #abused & traumatized that she could hardly be touched and hid for so so long. #Patience & #presence - an important lesson to help in the #healing of others and ourselves, is what brought #trust and understanding. Be #kind to yourself. #catsofinstagram #cats_of_instagram #CatsHeal #adoptdontshop #rescuecats #selfcare #AlternativeMedicine #IntegrativeMedicine #MoveNourishBelieve #HolisticHealth #naps #tabbiesofinstagram #IndiaDwells
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#nofilter Completely laid out yesterday by 3... knew I would be but that's okay. Getting my self consistently back to my Parish is a huge priority. Realities of the life of those with debilitating #chronicpain is that it's a bummer when it's such an absolutely stunning day out, I would like to sit in my #garden (nay-WORK in my garden 🌿) or at least even sit on my #gardenporch to be quiet or chat with a friend on the phone or read ( One of my greatest pleasures in life that I can't do for pleasure at all anymore and work adamantly to rebuild my brain every day to regain ). I'm also really hungry. Too tired to really move, certainly eat- even a yogurt or something. But that's the definition of " #Spoonie " you have so many spoons πŸ₯„ of each thing every day , to walk, talk, sit, stand, move, BE - and then they're gone. Sometimes you feel it coming and sometimes, most often for me, it's the cartoon piano that falls suddenly from nowhere and I'm on my ass. You never know how many spoons you have for the day when you wake up - every single day can be wildly different from the next- planning and #timemanagement very difficult. Since my #TBI a few months ago life has been flooded with change, I've been busting my ass since June 2012 to get out of this to no lasting avail, but now, with one of the best care teams in the country I feel some #hope . I'm utterly #exhausted and need a break from it - just a day maybe, still no real #homehealthaide and no time to look. But again, you have to make a choice every SINGLE moment of what you are going to use the spoon you have this second for. Yesterday- I drug myself to church and got the #soulsalve I need to help me in EVERY way. One ☝️ thing, one minute, one day at a time might graduate surviving back into living. Not might, WILL. Rest is not failure. #determination #desperation #MoveNourishBelieve #TheBarriersWeFace #chronicfatigue #sci #NeurologicalDisorder #neurogenicinflammation #MaladaptiveNeuroplasticity #chronicallyill #keeponkeepingon #BeGood #IndiaDwells #FBS
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#nofilter I used to only wear a hat to Easter Service at church, but I have a lot of catching up to do and so I've decided that every Sunday merits a #churchhat or other head adornment. Gosh knows, I have enough and I love ❀️ them. This kind is called #fascinators most commonly worn in the #UK where they really know their #headgear . It makes me feel extremely happy and good 😊 . #selfcare comes in many forms - becoming so #ChronicallyIll at points that you cannot change your clothes for days at a time or brush her teeth diminishes your #selfworth enormously which in turn impacts your #pain . Every small action that you are able to take to make yourself feel good, feel valuable, helps over all. I woke up this morning in high levels of pain unsure if could sit in a pew- but with #DBT #copingskills I was able to take that pain number down to a manageable level, and go be with my fellow congregants and ponder the insights of 'Finding #Forgiveness' . The new #Pastor of our #Parish is remarkable and full of vision. "What is gone is gone, all that is needed is here. We do not disappear when we move on." #integrativemedicine #integrativehealth #holistichealth #MoveNourishBelieve #chronicpain #spoonie #spoonielife #AlternativeMedicine #fashionheals #prayerheals #meditation #IndiaDwells
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Just the simplest and best #hea#healthyeating ! #Cauliflower is one of my favorite foods and I love to roast and quick broil it with onions garlic a little olive oil and sea salt and cracked black pepper, and then just add some #pecan pieces into the bowl with a splash of lemon juice & zest if you have it and some crushed red Pepper flakes. It's just simply heaven., #Vegan #vegetarian . Some folks will take a large head and slice it into 1 1/2" thick " #steaks " , you can also make a really easy #tahini dressing for it, just use your instincts.... tahini, whatever oil you like , if you have some #AvocadoOil on hand that's great, a little honey balances nicely with the chili flake, A bit more lemon juice - throw it in the blender until it taste good ! The "steak" presentation can make for a nice alternative entrΓ©e if you are doing a dinner party. If you want to augment this particular simple bowl of cauliflower and you are not vegan you can shave some grated cheese over it like my favorite #Asiago and a #poachedegg is always a thing of splendor. I will roast several heads of cauliflower at a time for different preparations it's awesome with whole-grain linguini or fettuccine and added flat leaf parsley- don't forget to add some of the cooking water from the pasta always!!! You can still keep this pasta dish begin by using the amazing @miraclenoodle . @stillmansfarm @stilllifefarm #EarthCandy #NaturesFastFood #cruciferous #cruciferousvegetables #EatClean #eatyourmedicine #AlternativeMedicine #IntegrativeMedicine #HolisticHealth #MoveNourishBelieve #healthyeating #healthyself #BeGood #IndiaDwells
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#sundayservice ... so delighted with our new #Pastor and so grateful to our #caring #community for facilitating my transportation today. Last Sunday I made it on my own, this week I have been in so much #pain I could hardly move and I wasn't even sure- with help if I could go. But I NEED this. This #SoulSalve is the ULTIMATE in #selfcare and I have been waiting for this amazing new #spiritual leader. She is rad. One thing she said today about #UnitarianUniversalists is that we come together to something like a "spiritual salad bar, we take a little from this, a little from that and we all get what we need". Indeed I could not find more truth in this as we have readings from #Confucious the #Bible #Quran #Rumi #Hindu #Scripture the #Torah and every other possible source you could think of. As she said last week about our #faith community- quoting Rumi "this is no caravan of despair" . #ittakesavillage and we've got all kinds even some #atheists . Something I found particularly wonderful about today was that RE, or religious education started today and of the seven people who volunteered to teach the children this year four of them do not currently have kids participating in the program. It's a really really big commitment and it means a lot less people to hold our children in their hearts and minds so tenderly and thoughtfully. I love my #Parish and am so happy to be back. #IntegrativeMedicine #HolisticHealth #AlternativeMedicine #healing #meditation #singing #IndiaDwells #Spoonie #ChronicPain
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Gaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh πŸ˜–πŸ˜–πŸ˜– KILLER #spasms and #pain in my #lowerlumbar and #sacrum fire shooting up and out of my #spine and my legs shaking like jello that's full of broken glass . #GoingWithTheFlow more easily lately but I'm #pissed right now , besides being in a fuckton of pain I was in the middle of a bunch of stuff... slowly #ChippingAway at it all, but progress. This really #hurts and I'm also #hungry. #nervepain #neurologicaldisorder #SCI #TBI #ChronicPain #Movenourishbelieve #IndiaDwells #CBT #DBT #IntegrativeMedicine #AlternativeMedicine #HolisticHealth #discdegeneration #congenitaldeformity via @RiplApp
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#nofilter Felt like a real person this morning, and so #OverTheMoon to have been able to have gone to #church and you know.....#ChurchHats #SelfCare #Living #Community #FashionHeals #FeelPretty #IntegrativeMedicine #HolisticHealth #Prayer #Singing #Worship #AlternativeMedicine #Healing #IndiaDwells
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Could not be happier to be back where I belong. #church #community #prayer #caring #selfcare #IntegrativeMedicine #AlternativeMedicine #HolisticHealth #healing #goodfolks #IndiaDwells NOT #homebound today!!! πŸ€˜πŸΌπŸ˜πŸ’ƒπŸ™ #ChronicPain #ChronicallyIll I'm starting to feel the pain of being out and even the short drive so home I go to #rest and #ice hopefully briefly and then I have paperwork I need to do. #Pacing is critical
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The Red Turtle a @studio__ghibli_ film. It was utter #magic. I cannot recommend more highly. Wordless. Mesmerizing. Beautiful. @yukoart so many moments made me think of your work. Enjoy. #SelfCare #Film #animation #turtles #shipwrecked #miracles #ArtHeals #IntegrativeMedicine #HolisticHealth #ArtTherapy #AlternativeMedicine #Spoonie #SpoonieLife #ChronicPain #ChronicallyIll #IndiaDwells
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THIS is #life living not just barely #surviving . Being able to #celebrate this remarkable woman and dear #friend who I #love so much. She glows. This gal isn't one of my "lifers" she hasn't known me for 20 years she just met me three years ago when I wasn't in great shape certainly was far from my best self and YET she befriended me. The #silverlining of the accident that caused my #TBI and #PCS is that something got rewired in my brain and I've been able to chip away in small increments different things every day. Because of this, as well as some other things new specialists #medication changes, More frequent pain procedures etc. i've had more better days than worse and so after years of not being able to do so last night I was able to #cook food in my home which didn't look like a complete shit show to celebrate this lady's birthday and also finally meet HER best friend... Who made me laugh so hard that I lost my voice. When Aimee unwrapped this gift which is a massage center part of a Catit system for her rock star ⭐️ kitty MoMo we were all pretty shocked at how much of a giant sex toy it look like!! Sarah just casually said.. 'You can't unsee the Nubbin'. So much #laughter so much #fun A little House on the Prairie bonnet for her cat 🐱. We are dedicated to be the ONLY PEOPLE who are allowed to give each other cat related gifts 🎁. It was the best. Today 1/2 day of rest #Spoonie #SpoonieLife #RollerCoaster #GoodDay #IntegrativeMedicine #Joy #community #HolisticHealth #IndiaDwells #MoveNourishBelieve
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#Fuck . Best Word in the English language. It can be used for every single possible situation and emotion so..... #FuckIt #FuckEm #FuckThis #FuckThat and #UnFuckYourself like #Nike #JustDoIt. #Spoonie #SpoonieLife #ChronicPain #ChronicallyIll #IntegrativeMedicine #integrativehealth #HolisticHealth #FightBigPharma #IndiaDwells
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Holy #Tomatoes !!! @stillmansfarm @stilllifefarm is NOT kidding around and this #JerseyGirl could not be happier! What an incredible day to be able to actually get out of my house, so unbelievably #happy ! #Spoonie #SpoonieLife usually #homebound #ChronicPain #ChronicallyIll #IntegrativeMedicine #HolisticHealth #FoodHeals #Community #Farmers #farmersmarket #IndiaDwells
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Goldie #huskcherries on The #KitchenCounter like a #CandyDish you don't wash these when you get them from your #farmer because there's no need.... just bought them out into your mouth when you need a #healthysnack or feel like a #sugarfix Mmmmm... just like anything else you have to stop and save some for later! 😘. #sexy little #tomatoes @stillmansfarm @stilllifefarm #supportyourlocalfarmer #CSA #FarmShare #IndiaDwells #IntegrativeMedicine #HolisticHealth #AlternativeMedicine #foodheals #EarthCandy
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